A Second Childhood?

Can you cast your memory back to a time when more than anything else in the whole wide world, all you wanted most was to be able to stay up all night long? Maybe it was to demonstrate how "grown up" you wished to be. Or maybe it was because you were on a sleep over with your very best friend and wanted to remember every single magical moment with them.

Well that's what being in love with You my dear makes feel. That blissful feeling of being on top of the world....finally at long last is now mine.

Having reached the point of wanting to only see the good and light in the world means I will seldom write a post such as this. One of past reflections. For as we all know, the past isn't real and isn't happening now. All of those who once held power over us, who may have hurt us are no longer granted that position, are they? As adults we take control of our own lives and destiny and are therefore able to choose whom we allow in and who we banish forever more.

That unlike a time when we were children....if that is, being a child to you meant as it did to me. An unhappy and fearful time when abuses on every level were part of daily living. When I could not seek even a moments' escape in the sanctity of good and loyal friends, for school too was a hell within itself. Not a single trusted girlfriend, favourite teacher or even the one I foolishly believed for all of a second to be my true love....none of it is real.

Then came YOU! All those years of wanting and hoping and finally You, my Love and World...security, safety, and love. That for the first time ever, I am able to look in the mirror each new day and feel at peace and sincerely happy and just felt that I should say it here....where my thoughts can sort them self out - I love You now and always will my Darling, my First "M"